Tomorrow Can Be Worse

Back when I was a child, I used to be hopeful and excited about tomorrow. Because tomorrow means the end of today and today’s problems.

As a kid, our problems were smaller. Like a school holiday, so that I can sleep late, or have no homework. Going out with family, watching a little bit more T.V. at night if tomorrow’s going to Saturday.

But as an adult, tomorrow somehow became a nightmare. I am not under my parent’s protection anymore. I have to be my own man. And that’s scary.

Fights all of your fights alone every day and is unable to ask for help or advice. Because nobody will understand the road that you have chosen is tough.

The bonds that we thought were real and would last a lifetime are turning out to be an act.

And when this happens, tomorrow won’t necessarily bring positive anymore. It could be worse than today. So I slowly started to realize the value of today especially now.

Now, not only do I have full control but I can act and shape up the rest of the day and probably tomorrow.

Before this realization, I used to make myself sad or miserable now, so that tomorrow I could be happy but most of the time it never happened.

Most of the days tomorrow only brought more sorrows and hardships, that came not only from me but also from others.

I thought of myself as such a fool.

While the world is trying to bring me down, why am I also trying to bring myself down?

It’s me vs the world.

If I don’t take care of my well being then who will?

And this is how I started to live on now, not today but NOW.

I stopped thinking about the next hour or tomorrow and started doing things that make me happy now. Improving my skills, and learning new things.

Before my mindset was

Hey, I am interested in that. I will do that tomorrow.

But now my mindset is

Hey, I like that. Let’s do it!

And I never let the tomorrow thought come to mind. I just get up or sit up and start doing it.

I admit it’s still a work in progress though.

Thank you for staying until the end!