Are You Living Or Surviving Through Life?

I Was Surviving Before, But Now I Am Learning To Live

Living and surviving depends on your Passion. I have written about it here.

Waking up tired after 7 hours of sleep, your body doesn’t need rest, your mind and heart do. Because you are doing things you don’t like. You are not living your life. You are surviving it.

A feeling like you don’t have any energy in your body. After hours of sleep, you won’t feel fresh. Slowly you won’t be able to laugh, things that made you happy in the past won’t make you happy anymore. And one day you will start to question your own existence.

That’s not good for you!

A few months back I was like this. Waking up, freshening up and then eating breakfast and going to do the thing I don’t like. Like a robot, no heart or soul into it. Just doing the things that were expected of me, like a good little boy.

I knew I was dying inside. Lost the meaning of it all. But convinced myself only a few more months, and then it will be over.

But one day, I can’t remember the details of that day, I realized that I have been telling this thing to myself for the last 7, or 8 years. And still, I am in this race. Not treating myself, leaving it for the future.

Why?

So that I can get some praise from others. Praise which is not even consistent.

Then I decided to do the thing I feared the most. I QUIT!

Some nights go by I feel sad. That I quit and I am a failure. But then I try to make myself remember when was I more happier.

Then or now?

The answer always is now. Finally, I take a deep breath and fall asleep.

Maybe success is far away from me right now. But I am going at it every waking moment of my life. I am doing the thing I love. Even if it is a waste of time for others. I adore this waste of time.

And I think you should waste some of your time too. Do what you love or always wanted to do, but because of the shackles of expectations never could do them. Believe me, half your problems will go away if you do the things you love.

Even failures won’t be able to bring down your morale.

Now when I am faced with failure I take it with a smile on my face. Because you can’t be angry about something that you love. But back then, when I was faced with even a small setback, I used to get very destructive. Not on the outside, but on the inside.

I guess I finally realized the meaning of the below sentence

“You only have one life. So live it the way you want. With a heart full of joy and a big smile on your face.”

In the morning you wake up excited wondering what the new day has in store for you. Being excited about doing something that makes you happy. Is the real way to live your life in my opinion!

Thank you for staying until the end!